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I'm scouring alt.fan.dragons to find out what happened in the past.
To see why so many people left.
Some were subject to rl (as was I so many moons past), others split from the group after the dark tide thread. And others, I have no inkling...

I recently posted a return post to the group. I've had responses saying that it was beautiful, and they wished that posts in that nature still existed. I'm looking at a google search of a friends email and seeing all the animosity that sprung up between the IC posters and the not IC posters. I was away for much of it. Moving constantly, trying to get my life back on track, not having a computer or internet acess. I'm glad I missed the arguments, and the shouting matches and seemingly endless debates.

But I miss the posts, and the people.

And someone asked about the dark tide a few days back, and it brought back all sorts of feelings I had forgotten about.
It was a thread I hadn't gotten involved in mostly due to the fact that it overwhelmed me.

I didn't have the time to get seriously involved in a serious thread.

However, unlike half of the newsgroup, it wasn't something that I felt was to be ignored. The Dominance (or Wang toodle of Dragons if you will) had been seriously damaged in that thread, dragons and people near and dear to me died in that thread. It was something to raise a memorial to yet there were regular posters there then (and now) that insist it *never happened*

I feel so alien right now. I want it to be 1997 again. I want to see those people again. And in posting my return, I have called a few of the olde fruits out of the woodwork. But in passing there were so many more that I have no clue on how to contact anymore.

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It's snowing again.
I noticed this as I was walking from the nearest bus stop late at night
It isn't the nice fat flakes that danced about yesterday and made walking in the snow a fun thing.

No, now we have little bitty crystaline flakes that sting and bite as they blow into you.
Leaving you with a feeling of flesh having been stripped from the bone when you finally get inside and start to warm up.

*ahem* I sound bitter don't I?

I don't mind the walk from The County Fair shopping plaza to here.
It is a nice walk. but, not in blowy stinging snow with drifts that are ankle deep or higher, and ice where people had shoveled earlier and the melt of the day has refrozen in the night.

Especially not carrying groceries.

I'm still thinking of doing a comic.
Probably something autobiagraphical.
I've been sketching out charecters the last few days/weeks/months.
I kinda like toying with the idea of a story where the main charecter is never seen face to face.

Not something I could pull off though.

It will have to sit on the back burner untill I get out of school.
I have too much on my plate currently.

we'll see what happens i suppose.